I am a Working Gal

Side note I wrote something, and I never hit save folks! This is a remind to always save your work.

So, I am a working girl now, yesterday when I started writing this, I was very optimistic. I really was excited, and bored but taking the days as they came because once the student come in, it will definitely my chaotic days to come. But today as I am typing something new because of course I have no idea what I typed yesterday. All I feel is overwhelmed and like my brain is trying to think harder than should be. I know I am overwhelmed with the move and starting a new job, but I have not had time to let it sink in. It is sad that not knowing the leave process, and getting time confused when it came to a meeting a scheduling is the thing that broke me down. I never realized how much newness was around. First real job, first time with an office, first time submitting benefits paperwork, first time needing take off or leave early and there is process (side note I am currently crying while typing this). But there is a lot of first and I kept things positive versus trying to acknowledge that this is a lot and although I am taking it day by day, I need to have time to process it all. I haven’t even seen some family being back home because I still have not had that time to process.

Yesterday when I started this post I thought about the first time I tried to get a job at a retail store and I kept getting denied and I believe I was 16 or 17 at the time. Then I got to college and I applied for my first on campus job and I got that job and ever since I was only able to get student related jobs except the 6 months, I spent at Ulta in New Orleans, and I was so proud because it had nothing to do with being a student worker. But of course , I had my moment where that was new and too much as well.

As I am sitting in my office crying, my eyes out because I am overwhelmed and I havent really had me time since I started this job unless it was to sleep. I realized that some of these tears were tears of thankfulness. Gosh, I am just so thankful, I made it this far man. 2022 was really one of the most trying times in my life. I found out something recently that reminded me that I am still standing, and I am here by the grace of God. And I am so thankful for this job opportunity.

All I want to say is cheers to new beginnings. Remember to make time for yourself. And it is okay to feel your feelings versus continuously trying to stay positive!